I almost always feel I am too old to be boy crazy and have crushes… I am after all th-th-th-th-irty! (that was tough to say!) But, I think I actually have every right now to be boy crazy for the same reason, because of my age… it’s almost dawn…
Not that I have been boy crazy when I was younger… Sure, I did sleep around and that there is nothing you have done in bed that I can’t say been there, done that—what, I’m gay!?! But never really was I boy crazy… Which, I think is the primary reason why, I have not end up, not even have slept with the guys I felt intense feelings for… sure, I had numerous relationship, from serious to what-his-name-again… but I never have… Oh, there was Nick…! Funny, that one…
Nick and I frequented one of the blue bars before, and that though he was the one who first approach me, the moment I saw him, I felt it… I was in love with him… I know what he wanted when he approached me that night, he wanted to coax me to bed… but because I was having all this feelings for him… I played hard to get, thinking we should know each other better first… refusing to be just one of those guys in his life… but after months and months, I realize that, no matter what I do, I am to him just one of those guys he just want to bang… and so, I did… and that was the end of it… he was totally bad in bed… what is more funny is, I saw him again in the office… at least his picture… he worked for the same company, same program… one of my boss actually knew him… it’s a gay world after all, I guess…
Anyhow…
Well, there’s Kina and Emerald… Emerald my almost intolerable gay team mate… crushing on Ghelo and Kina, crushing on one of the Execs… seeing them, being kilig-kilig and all, like teenage catholic school girls, complete with shrieking, made me miss how it is… and there’s the season to be marry fast approaching… and that realization that the last relationship I had ended way back February… I have to be in love again!
No-no-no… I don’t think I want to be in a relationship… but if you insist, the least you can do is try to see me again, always and not just send me mushy text messages, com’on…! Make me fall in love…! I just want that feeling… that rush of seeing your crush… that shortness of breath whenever he is around… those sleepless nights you spend thinking of him…
Well, there’s Y at the office… another funny story, Y is actually second choice, not that he isn’t cute…! Y is very cute… with a cap on, without the cap… not so much… but who am I to be choosy…? I think it was the reason why the queen fairies in the floor left him to me…
There are four queen fairies at the office, in our department… and I fondly call them Sang’gre, based on the famed Encantadia, a fantaserye (fantasy telenovella) over at GMA 7… There’s Amihan, he is the eldest… Pirena, the feistiest among the four… Alena, the kindess… and Danaya, the youngest… except Pirena, the three others had been my team mates when they were still agents, and that I have somehow developed kinship with Alena and Danaya… now they are all officers, Pirena and Danaya becoming the eyes above all agents…
This was January-February this year… I was with Amihan having dinner at the bridge, and that over the next table were the newbies, handled by Danaya… One of the newbie caught my eyes and so the next time I saw Danaya, who is always with Alena, I told them… Automatically, they said no… and that I should have known Danaya have already claimed that newbie as his and that the newbie is already forbidden… I wouldn’t dare anger a Sang’gre… not specially Danaya… almost at the same time, I also spotted Y, who was a coming back agent from being a tech review in Makati… I also thought he was cute, until he took off his cap… “You are so bad…” Alena would say to me… but really, Y is just cute with a cap on… without the cap, not so… one would even say he looks awkward without a cap… and that was how I was relegated to Y, because the newbie is already Danaya’s pet…
The newbie was Ghelo… who Emerald is head over heels, fearless of the wrath of Danaya… but then Danaya have already moved on to a newer newbie… he still favors Ghelo, but no longer does he forbid any other fairies to lust over him and try to still him in vain… I, on the other hand, stayed loyal to Y… this despite, like Ghelo, he proves to be elusive to fairies… and that I can only worship him from a far…
So there goes my love life…
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